Loading: The Blog

Ep.1 - 7 Minute Half

People have been asking me for years why I haven’t taken music more seriously. The truth is for a long time I was scared to pursue it. I wasn’t scared of the music making process, in fact I made two projects over the last 8 years that most of you still love to this day. (The Overdose & Four Years Forward) I also wasn’t scared of the live performance element of a music career. If you had the benefit of coming to one of my shows from The Overdose back in 2013-2015 then you probably remember me as being extremely comfortable on stage. Those shows and the connections I made with fans are some of my most special memories

So what was I really scared of? I think the thing I call fear most people call anxiety. As you probably know by now “The Overdose” was an album about the maturity and growth that happened in my life after a suicide attempt. 72 hours locked in a psych ward and getting your stomach pumped with charcoal really motivates you to figure shit out quickly! I guess one of the things I didn’t really figure out was how to appreciate the present for exactly what it is. I had this traumatic experience that opened me up to all these truths about life and how to live it more abundantly, but the new problem was my obsession with the future “better” version of myself. It’s like I was coping with depression by telling myself, “One day Lacey, you’ll be somebody that has value.” When it came to music I didn’t want to put music videos out because I hated that I was a “big dude”. Eventually I convinced myself that I probably don’t look cool on stage because I’m not physically “there yet”. How did I go from a person who enjoyed making music, to this person who’s scared to release new content because its not perfect? I think I know why.

All the growth and maturity that came from that traumatic experience in 2013, and I missed the most important part.

RIGHT NOW WHEREVER YOU ARE AT, THAT SHIT IS OK.

It’s that simple. This is exactly what Loading is all about. Be wherever the hell you are man. I’m not saying that growth is not important but we all grow at different paces. There is so much to enjoy in the process of being a better version of yourself. I just figured this out and it’s changing everything.

SO with all that being said, what is 7 Minute Half really about? Two things:

DillyGotItBumpin & Absolute Fucking Confidence…

At the same time I was deciding to launch Loading The Brand I ran into a producer online named Dilly, I have about 12 songs with him so far and well (more on that at another time haha). That’s who I am talking about when I start the song off …

“Dilly on soul beats I found my favorite”

Together me an him are making some magic and I think I’m actually developing a unique sound so I can establish my own lane and sound. The other theme of the song was just me talking my shit, something I rarely do on my songs.

“ I used to do the fake humble that’s the first stumble, I am the greatest in the game now rip your first bundle”

I was writing the lyrics to this song at the same time that I was starting Michael Jordan Netflix series “The Last Dance”. The episode that talks about Jordan getting hurt and being limited to 7 minutes per half has been my source of inspiration for months. Jordan’s desire to win was so great that he essentially willed his team into the playoffs. That’s the vibe I’m on now. Today I’m an amazing rapper who can rap in any circle with anybody. Today I’m a big dude but got damn it I’m that nigga with a fit and a crispy fade.(You see the photos lol) We’ll worry about the future Lacey when we get there but today I’m doing the best I can do and that’s pretty damn good. So like Michael Jordan with a bruised left foot, fuck a draft pick, let’s win it all.

To check out the Official 7 Minute Half Music Video click the link below.